Friendships

We all like to think that we know and understand ourselves, and many believe that they know their friends and some even study their “enemies”. But the only one who truly knows us from the inside out is God. We try to impress others with our things, and good deeds. But the best way to impress is to live a godly life and follow the teachings of the Bible.
We develop and cultivate friendships based on what is in it for us. How can this person help me in reaching my goals? And so many times once they have outlived their usefulness we leave them by the wayside.
I watch a lot of television, much of it is reality TV. And from watching this reality I have seen one underlying theme. The ends justify the means. Week after week these people will lie, scheme and backstab all in the name of “the game”. They will go before the camera, and state that this is not who I really am, but I am doing it for the game. If you are willing to do whatever it takes on national television, then I have no doubt that you will do the same thing when millions are not looking. What has happened to Do unto Others as You Would Have Done unto You? Our society has become so desensitized and to this type of behavior, that it is becoming accepted as normal and correct.
I know that I am rambling, but I think what I am trying to say is that we should treat others as we want to be treated, and we should make friends for the sake of having friends.

Healing Wounds

As I read my devotional this morning I began to see myself in a new way. I see that I not only wear the pain and scars as an armor to protect me but also as a badge. Yep, I am proud of my scars and I want the world to know what I have lived through and risen above. But as long as I carry them with me I have not risen above them I am holding on and using them as an excuse when things go wrong.
I have asked for God’s forgiveness, but I have failed to forgive. I have begged for understanding, but I have not understood. I don’t like it when others don’t do as I believe they should. But I believe that it is just fine when I do or say as I want without thought to what effect it may have on someone else.
We all have scars, and we all carry pain from the past and the present and the pain that each and every one of us carries is no less important than the others. It is just different because we are different. Some may not have as many scars as others, but they were just as painful when they were inflicted. It is how we deal with them after they have started to heal is what is important. Do we continually pick at the wound and keep it from healing or do we put a salve on it and leave it alone. As a Christians we need to learn that God will provide a wonderful healing salve if we will just let him apply it. And he will heal our wounds and just like a physical wound heals better with the right care so do those deeper wounds that we carry on the inside.

Life Can Change in a Moment

On the day that Wayne died my life changed. I became a mother without a child. I became a statistic, a number on a list of others whose children had taken their own lives.
I cannot say that I was a good mother. But I did and still do love with all my heart the beautiful little boy with copper colored hair that always had a hug for me. He had a heart that was bigger than he was. And he loved with every ounce of it. He was smart and caring and loved to play pratical jokes on everyone around him.
On the day that he died, I was worrying about Christmas and how we were going to be able to afford presents, and all of the other expenses that seem to come with the holidays. By the end of the day all of that was not important. For my baby was gone and I did not understand why.
I still don't understand why, and I never will in this life. But I know with all my heart that I will see him again one day after my job in this life is finished. There have been days that I wanted to end it all, the pain, the questions, the doubt. But I didn't mostly because I did not want to hurt those I will leave behind as much as I was hurt when Wayne left me.
I am scarred with the scars from a life of mistakes and bad choices and although Wayne's father was one of those mistakes, something beautiful came from it and for that I am forever grateful.

Shortcuts and Consequences

This morning’s devotional was about taking shortcuts. You know the ones that I am talking about. Putting the dish in the sink instead of the dishwasher, Leaving the mail on the table instead of going through it and tossing out the junk mail right then, all of the little things that we don’t do in the name of “not enough time right now”.
It got me to thinking about all of the shortcuts that I have taken and where they got me. I cannot play the piano, because I took shortcuts during my lessons. I am now back in college, because I took a shortcut to adulthood with disastrous results. I have had some great jobs in my life that I walked away from, because I wanted to reach the top of the ladder too quickly.
It has taken me a long time to learn that if it is worth having it is worth working for and worth taking the time to get it right. Taking the time to do a job right will always reward us. This is a lesson that I am learning a little later in life than I would have liked, but I am learning the lesson nonetheless.
My relationship with God is much the same. It is a long process of but in the end if I take the time and build a strong foundation and work my way through it will be stronger and I will be less likely to falter when obstacles are put in my path. I am a work in progress, and I thank God that he is still willing to take the time to complete me.
So my thought for today is that slow and steady might not win the race but you will cross the finish line, and when you do it will be with the knowledge that it was done the right way.

Frindships and Trust

My devotional this morning talked of friendship, especially those between women. And how women cherish the friendships that they have and grieve when they are lost.

Over the years many very special women have walked into and out of my life. Women that made me feel loved and special. But there have been very few that were close enough for me to feel that I could confide in them and tell them my deepest and darkest feelings and secrets. Those things that you need to speak out loud, but know that if you ever do then there is no going back. But there have been some that I trusted enough to confide my innermost thoughts to. And sadly, more times than not those shared thoughts were not kept in confidence. So now I am even more guarded about what I share and with whom. And that is not how true friendship should be.

True friendship, is trust, Loyalaty and above all it is acceptance no matter what. I think we have become such a disposable society that we are too quick to dismiss and dispose of things in our lives. It has become to easy to throw away and replace with the latest and greatest.

A true friend is someone to cherish and a true friendship takes time, you have to nurture it and allow it to grow. Time and trust will build a bond that can never be broken. And we need to stop expecting instant results and realize that anything worth having is worth waiting for.

Why Do I Blog?

Blogging, this is a term that was unheard of just a few years ago, and now everyone is blogging. What does it mean to blog? Is it my own personal platform to promote what is important to me? Is it a place to spread gossip and lies about others? Or is it an area where people who feel that they have something worthwhile to say can freely get their message out to anyone that is interested in hearing it.

Actually I think it is all of the above. I want to use my blog to tell others of my faith and how it has given me the strength and courage to go on in some very difficult times. I hope that by sharing my story that it may help someone else who is struggling. I hope to pass on the peace that turning it over to God gave me. Because without God, and my faith I would still be here, alive but that is about all that I would be, alive, but not living.

I don't have all the answers. I have a lot of questions, but the one answer that I do have is that without faith, and without my Lord Jesus I might have survived but I would not be living.

Clear Thoughts and Common Sense

“Dear friend, guard clear thinking and common sense with your life; don’t for a minute lose sight of them. They’ll keep your soul alive and well, they’ll keep you fit and attractive. Prov. 1-21 The Message


I started using The Message at the suggestion of a friend at church. It is a version of the Bible written in contemporary language and I personally gain a better understanding of what I am reading. I have always been a visual learner, I learn more by doing than by reading. So as I read this passage I thought about how I had not always followed the teachings of this scripture. And how each time I veer from the path I learn another lesson, like I said I learn by doing.
I am in the midst of a huge learning experience right now, as a matter of fact. I have learned that it would have been much easier if I had stayed in college 30 years ago rather than trying to go back now. I have learned that you cannot take back words once they have been spoken. And even if you truly meant no harm, and the person that they were directed towards never hears them. If they were said in unkindness it reflects on you more than it does of the person they were said about. And just because someone does or says something that hurts you, retaliation will only reflect on you. So we all need to think clearly and use common sense in all that we do.